||[Mar. 14th, 2011|12:30 am]
For a minute I faultered. |
For a minute I looked at Shain and wished it was you.
I had dreams of how I wished things would have gone.
The last time we were face to face, your words had no effect. I looked at you for what you've always been. All talk.
I still wanted to wrestle. So we'd have an excuse to touch. I still wouldn't have refused a kiss. Cause your still the best kisser.
The best sex I've ever had I don't love, and I don't ever want to have sex with him again.
I dont know why I loved you.
It had a lot to do with the dimples, and blue eyes.
The emo music we listened to in highschool didnt help.
But I'm no longer a love ridden teenager.
I'm ready to settle down and have a life and your not stable enough.
You're childish ways are no longer a chalenge to me.
Shain's childish ways are his fits and ADD.
But he left all he had behind for me.
His big brown eyes look at me, lovingly, far more. He's quicker to appologize and admit he's done wrong, He doesnt lie, twist his words, to make me feel at fault for the issue.
He calls me out when I'm being a hyper sensative bitch, but he loves me enough to take 99% of it, and want more.
Goes as far to love me for how much of a bitch I can be.
He'll chase me from room to room when I walk away.
You'd never even respond.
I only love you because you were my first.
I think I can finally say I'm over you. Here I come Texas